Doomed

I am doomed. I am doomed in confusion. I let myself yield into infinite feelings of ease.Everything seems at ease at first, but when everything just rambles on to your face, it burdens your mind. Every bit in my life right now is in a mess. They're clustered around without any purpose whatsoever. What do I need right now? I am not sure. I am just a piece of person living on earth alone. I am aware that I'm not alone physically, I know. I seem to fail, I seem to wander around without any boundaries that I use to have. I can't  think, I can't think, I can't think. My thoughts are wandering around my mistakes throughout my life. I'm devastated. I am screwed. I am alone and lonely. I am utterly a shame. I am not the same. I am not me My God. I am not me. I can't be me again. I can't. I don;t know how to turn back time and try to reemerge my old self. I can't I don;t know how. I'm a bit hopeless. I can't seem to find the light. It's empty here. I don't know what happened today, but I feel awful. I feel awful, I feel nauseous. I can't handle this. I need time. I need time. I need you. Someone. Someone. Someone. A friend. A friend. I need a friend to lean on. I need to talk to someone. I need to call someone. I need to talk to someone.



I need to find relief. I need to find relief. I need you.