Random lightness

I walk forward thinking I might fly away soon enough and never comeback. But then I pause for a moment and become mindful. I become aware of the things I have done and become most aware of what can become of me. Then I am able to walk again. I walk again knowingly of what comes. I pause again. Afraid of what I have become. But then I keep walking again with a feeling of lightness.  I keep trying to see myself. Isn't that a weird sentence for me to make. "I keep trying to see myself". What has become of me and what I will become later. I keep trying to see. Oh wait, what I meant to say is that I keep trying to understand myself. 

I'm going to keep going. Forward.