Maintaining my Faith

I was struggling at first to find what its in it for me if I pray a lot. It turns out that there are a lot of things from which I can benefit from. Peacfulness is something that I have been searching for all the years of my life. I did not care about praying and such. I believed in it, but yet I did not make use of it. I once remembered someone who told me to take care of myself in and out. Everyday I wondered if I could turn back time and said, yes I will take care of myself, and thank you for caring. Appreciation is the one thing that I forgot to give to that person. I once told myself to never make decisions whenever I'm in a very emtional state, but it turned out that I couldn't keep my own statement. I have surrendered myself in situations when right now if I traced back again, I would've done things differently. Because of all of these mistakes, I keep asking myself.

Am I worthy? Am I worthy to God? Do I still have the chance to change? Am I too late?

I hinder myself from being that person who can make a difference. All of these years I thought that I couldn't have the strength to be that person who everyone look up too. I don't know if I am that person now though. I don't want to make hasty statements. It seems so arrogant to let yourself shine too much. But still what has been on my head is, is it wrong to speak up when everybody is silent?. When everybody is afraid to speak? Should I take the chance? I guess I'll never know how to answer these questions. All I know is that I try to regulate myself into an individual who knows his or her position. That's all that is important.

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What do you think about manging time between a job that you took and ur getting paid for it between studying for this effing final exam? Which one would you prioritize first? Got a clue in how to out do all of these deadlines which are all coming rapidly sequentially.