I have actually pondered what it would be like when Uni life begins again in a new area. Don't you think that I too deserve a break at least a year to get me started on all these academical tasks that could overwhelm me in the future if I don't prepare enough? To lessen my burdening thoughts, I came to a lot of people for justification on how I can survive in that new place. Turned out to be encouraging although the fear always came through my mind once in a while despite all the chaos that has been going around. All the packing is almost done, but I still wonder how I would fit all of my belongings in my suitcase. A lot of my friends planned to bring a lot of things to this new home. They had already been shipped there stuff, but I think I won't bring that many things as them.
My dad always said that everything that we don't know can be learned. I believe in what he said, however, to me it's still frightening to start and learn new things. I am truly not a risk taker unlike some of my closest people. I am a more prepared, conscientious person when making major decisions. Is this a bad thing though? Would it actually help me? Does this provide a distinction to others? Can it just be that easy to decide?
It is pretty obvious that I don't want to be indecisive, I just want to be precise and dominantly in control on how my days would turn out. But I guess, the higher power here is not to be handled by me as a fragile being.
I would just have to strive and pray that positive outcomes will come continuously for the rest of my life.
