This is something that I wrote for an assignment at school. I figure it has something to do with the whole theme of the blog.
My life is basically about patience, integrity, and courage. Although in the past few months I haven’t shown all these 3 words and implement in everyday life, but I always try to stick with it. I look at myself as a kind person which is selflessly willing to sacrifice my own needs for someone else. On the contrary I could also be a person whose ego can manipulate my own soul. What I see is mostly an unstable person who is trying to find the best things in life. Try to deny all the bad things that I have and try to make all the good things come on the surface. Every person has two sides of themselves which are both good side and bad side.
The good side of me is I have high tolerance in friendships and I like having to help them in all sorts of situations which are still in the boundaries of my capability. Those 2 things that are my good sides are based on the experiences that I have had in the past. When I was in elementary school I had a very hard time at making friends. They looked at me as their bank. They were friends with me whenever they wanted to buy something. Because of their reasons to get close to me I often cried whenever I got home from school. I knew that those aren’t the things that friendship should be based on. Thank God when I was in junior high I didn’t have those experiences again. Frankly I had many friends and I didn’t have troubles in socializing. I was smart and I often got many achievements. I actually had the best score for the UAN test. I felt respected and at that stage I realize that there are still many good people out there. Entering high school I learned how to be humble and be thankful. I learned how to socialize better with people, much better than junior high. Probably because my high school was a boarding school so I learned how to understand an accept people’s differences. That stage of my life I felt very ordinary but great about myself because I realized that every people have different unique values inside.
For the bad side, I often get very emotional and easily get stress. Maybe it is because every time I’m in my room alone I feel like I am the only person in this world even though out there I still know that I have many friends. Everyday I try to fight those things and thankfully now I can control myself to not be extreme at it. It is common for people to have that but for me it is really strange because I often express it by crying.
I noticed all of those things while I was still in high school but now I’m in university, University of Indonesia and taking psychology as a major. The reason why I took psychology is because I was so fascinated by Oprah Winfrey. I completely had my eyes on her when I first started watching her talk show. The way she listens to people and giving feedbacks towards every each individual interesting story on her show really showed that she cared. Like Oprah, I myself is seen by my peers as a good adviser. Most of my friends like to talk to me about their problems and when they do that I get this feeling of being worthy and trusted. So by taking psychology I want to help people not just my friends by giving them inputs and advices based on knowledgeable opinions. Other than that the other purpose of taking this major is I want to know why my friends in elementary school behaved like that (explained in paragraph one). It is a mystery for me and I want to find the reasons of their behavior and my feedback to them.
In the future, I would love to have a talk show like Oprah Winfrey and have all the interesting guests which have different and unique stories. Also, I am hoping to open a counseling service at my own home. I want to be that person that could help individuals build their potentials because I believe that everybody has something inside that they can offer to the world.
Of course to reach all of the things above I would face many problems. What I usually and will do is I first try to solve it on my own. When the problems get tougher then I would ask for other people’s opinions. Their opinions then are filtered in my mind. After that I would try to make a conclusion of what they have given me. Because I am an extrovert person I often ask for other people’s help and recognition. I often get nervous and anxious if I can’t solve my own problem or sometimes runaway from it and try to not think and avoid it.
All the people in the world have different explanation about themselves. For me, all of the things that I have written above are about my whole self. No pretends and no lies.
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